This is a low. Nearly two years in the Industry. This is a High.
So once again I find myself questioning everything. Is this the right direction, am I enjoying my work and why do I constantly fail to keep my website and blog updated?
Honestly, I think the answer is simple. I'm learning too much without focus and don't get enough chance to practice the things I've learnt. "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." Damn it, Ferris was right.
As I've grown older, I realize that the inner me was right all the time. I should have stuck to the things I really enjoyed as a kid and pushed harder to learn more, develop my skills and become more than the sum of my parts. Follow the dream. "I may not be the fastest, tallest or strongest, I may not be the best or the brightest, but one thing I can do better than anyone else, that is to be me." - Leonard Nimoy
As part of my work (and I say work but really it's a labor of love) I spend a lot of time either creating 3D assets, r&d VR tech or in training.
I recently watched an great video on how to step your blog game and social media on the Academy of Art University (San Francisco) Youtube channel. It got me thinking, The presenter is so right, social media such as blogs are dynamic, they inform the reader of up to date information quickly and easily. Websites are partially static only being updated when necessary and used for commerce.
So why am I then paying for a website that I can only update every few months with personal work that isn't related to my current project (to avoid copyright issues)? Surely a kickass blog is the future... or was it the past. Blogging is so millennial. If you have some free time check it out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXxAmM8rvME
I need to worry less about my website, put some great pieces on there and then focus on the blog. Weekly updates with technical research, not just finished pieces. Share the creative process and the experience and hopefully build some great projects. Sounds simple doesn't it?
I'm restarting my learning in Zbrush. I attempted it a few years ago and found it a frustrating few weeks. I've got a good grip on hard surface modeling in Maya and it's time to take it up a notch. I will continue to record and publish my discoveries here. It seems like the logical step is to get some tutorials down first. 'Zbro' is a Korean artist and he is amazing. I'm following his videos and hopefully will also have produced something fairly good soon. Check out his channel here
https://www.youtube.com/user/zbro365/featured
So why is this a low? It's a wake up call. When you realize you're not as good as you thought, or have been idle for too long. What have I produced lately, we work in an environment where people look for results is a phrase I hear more and more. Clearly they don't understand pre-production, and are stuck in a factory process where only the final result matters. Don't get me wrong, the final result does matter but if you don't have any concept of how or why it's good your success wont last long. I am creative. I just need to find a way to make research and development sexy, help people see the benefit of spending time planning before rushing in.
I guess this is a low as I thought I'd be better by now. I thought I would know what I'm doing and be the best modeler the world has seen. (OK an over exaggeration) But I realize the more I know, the less I know. I'm not getting all Zen master, it's just a fact. I know that at the end of the road lies another journey, another adventure with more roads and forks. Both disaster and opportunity await me. I can't wait.
Honestly, I think the answer is simple. I'm learning too much without focus and don't get enough chance to practice the things I've learnt. "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." Damn it, Ferris was right.
As I've grown older, I realize that the inner me was right all the time. I should have stuck to the things I really enjoyed as a kid and pushed harder to learn more, develop my skills and become more than the sum of my parts. Follow the dream. "I may not be the fastest, tallest or strongest, I may not be the best or the brightest, but one thing I can do better than anyone else, that is to be me." - Leonard Nimoy
As part of my work (and I say work but really it's a labor of love) I spend a lot of time either creating 3D assets, r&d VR tech or in training.
I recently watched an great video on how to step your blog game and social media on the Academy of Art University (San Francisco) Youtube channel. It got me thinking, The presenter is so right, social media such as blogs are dynamic, they inform the reader of up to date information quickly and easily. Websites are partially static only being updated when necessary and used for commerce.
So why am I then paying for a website that I can only update every few months with personal work that isn't related to my current project (to avoid copyright issues)? Surely a kickass blog is the future... or was it the past. Blogging is so millennial. If you have some free time check it out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXxAmM8rvME
I need to worry less about my website, put some great pieces on there and then focus on the blog. Weekly updates with technical research, not just finished pieces. Share the creative process and the experience and hopefully build some great projects. Sounds simple doesn't it?
I'm restarting my learning in Zbrush. I attempted it a few years ago and found it a frustrating few weeks. I've got a good grip on hard surface modeling in Maya and it's time to take it up a notch. I will continue to record and publish my discoveries here. It seems like the logical step is to get some tutorials down first. 'Zbro' is a Korean artist and he is amazing. I'm following his videos and hopefully will also have produced something fairly good soon. Check out his channel here
https://www.youtube.com/user/zbro365/featured
So why is this a low? It's a wake up call. When you realize you're not as good as you thought, or have been idle for too long. What have I produced lately, we work in an environment where people look for results is a phrase I hear more and more. Clearly they don't understand pre-production, and are stuck in a factory process where only the final result matters. Don't get me wrong, the final result does matter but if you don't have any concept of how or why it's good your success wont last long. I am creative. I just need to find a way to make research and development sexy, help people see the benefit of spending time planning before rushing in.
I guess this is a low as I thought I'd be better by now. I thought I would know what I'm doing and be the best modeler the world has seen. (OK an over exaggeration) But I realize the more I know, the less I know. I'm not getting all Zen master, it's just a fact. I know that at the end of the road lies another journey, another adventure with more roads and forks. Both disaster and opportunity await me. I can't wait.
